Here is my problem. I have lots of chores and work that needs to be done. I need to work on my book. I need to prepare questions for some interviews for a TV show I’m helping out with. I need to get caught up on my German so that I am not super behind my classmates when I start school again next Fall. I need to clean and wash the dishes. I need to do a lot of things.
So far I have emailed some of the interview subjects I needed to email but not formulated any of the questions. I have moved my German book and notebook to the table by me but not opened them. I have started cooking dinner but had to put it on hold because the steaks were spoiled (due to me putting off cooking them for to many days). I will finish dinner when B (the boyfriend) gets back from his meeting downtown (he is going by the grocery store afterwards to get more steaks). I washed a couple dishes that I needed to cook dinner but not all of them. I tried to run errands but the Post Office was closed when I got there and I forgot the things I needed to have with me to run the other errands….
I’m not usually so scattered. This only happens on occasion. Usually when I have way overstimulated myself and have not had enough time to recover. I’m trying to take some time to decompress but I only have about a week and I have a lot to do during that time. So, it isn’t truly recovery time. It is just time to not be social.
Even at my best my ability to organize my time and to make time to get everything done is not my strongest ability. I can organize film shoots and schedule everything perfectly but I can’t organize and schedule my own life. If I am on a regular routine structured around a job or school then I do a bit better. I have to write a lot down and make sure I get enough sleep but I stay on schedule better when things are structured. Without a job or school it is more difficult. There is nothing to organize things around. This makes a schedule harder to formulate and makes it much more difficult for me to keep things on track.
As it is…dishes always need to be washed. There is always laundry I can’t seem to find time to do. So, that now I barely have anything clean to wear. I forget to eat. I stay up to late and sleep to late until there is something to do and I HAVE to get up early. Then I go to bed at 6pm and sleep 15 hours after to many nights of not enough sleep catch up to me.
I know how to fix this. I need to write a schedule for myself. And stick to it. Treat it the same as if it included school or work. Put everything I need to do on a daily and weekly basis in the schedule. I just have to figure out how to start writing this and how to stick to it…..
Which may be a bigger issue than it should be.